In Medias Res
Poems by Sean Bentley
Soup | What is, what was | Persistence of Vision
According to legend, | Moon, moons | In medias res
Soup
Waking, or barely, from one dream yet another’s overflow soaking through, fragments like portions from yesterday’s soup blended in today’s recombinant recipe, a chowder everlasting added to nightly. The Hunterian Museum is topped up with bell jars and vials where float morsels of flesh, the fetus of a walrus, an armadillo, a human (or five of them, Victorian quintuplets who didn’t make it). Organs whole, sliced, yellowed in their decades of pickling— elephant brains, avian spinal cords— a warthog jaw embellished hellishly with a tumor like a misshapen cholla. And skeletons in every state of twist and gnarl, bullet-punctured skulls, mis-healed limbs, bones simply ancient, or fused like badly grafted trees, as bulbous and lobed as the sycamores in Russell Square weirdly limbed like primordial creatures trying to decide which genus to adhere to. In Sir John Soanes’ house-cum-museum the rooms are drawn and quartered into huge vials brimming with relics of stone, plaster, paint and wood from age to age—busts and torsos, urns, sarcophagi, a progression of style from Assyrian to Greek to Renaissance. Lessons in how to build and decorate to fit one’s needs and fancies, where and how to nestle yourself among the centuries. In Marseille too, and Arles, where the bay or Rhone harbor Roman treasure long sunk in muck, museum vitrines like transparent carapaces show off the bones of past lives (not always treasure, not always bones: pottery and tools, fish hooks, knives, whole boats loaded with stones destined once for city pavings—mere rocks; capitals, volutes, cornices from columns pillaged and dumped overboard in disdain as one regime ousted another, civilizations evolving through versions of corruption, dead-ending like saurians or advancing like eohippus to equus—here together now under fluorescing light in one gathered swirl of history complete with explanatory panels in three languages. All part of a gumbo not quite endless―just not over till it’s over. Our and the dodo’s rickety bones, the Moors’ and the Cathars’, roiling together. I wish my dreams had as much explication and wayfinding assistance: context and code-breaking, the reassurance of underlying clarity and order and the knowledge that certain strains, certain timelines, won’t repeat— or cautions of what to watch for next: what are we doing right this time, or wrong, and how might we wake up.
What is, what was
What is (always) versus what is (now, afterwards). Now the world without end (once we had hubris enough, or blindness to say that without doubt) could end, although yes, there will be the clouds, which look the same here as in France, in ancient France, or the forlorn hoots of ring-necked doves the same here as there—what is, despite miles and passed time. Sand being sand on the Costa Brava or Haida Gwaii, despite Roman plinths or totems. Petals from our backyard dogwood drift over, settle onto the koi pond, above and below as they were in the beginning and ever shall be. We and our obsessions drift too and melt into the earth that truly has no end.
Persistence of vision
In memory, Richard Alan Smith “[E]vents ... catch my attention for a moment as they happen. Why, out of a thousand possible perceptions, are these the ones I seize upon? Reflections, memories, associations, lie behind them. ... So it is not just Seventh Avenue that I see but my Seventh Avenue, marked by my own selfhood and identity...” — Oliver Sacks, The River of Consciousness
Do I have the right to say “My Eugene”? Mine, amongst all the retired hippies selling pottery or herbs at Saturday Market or ambling emblematic in tie-dye and wild hair, college kids jay- walking or scootering in packs, embillowed in vape smoke, among shoals of the homeless crashed under bushes and bridges, and neighbors of all stripes, not to mention my wife, returned after half a life away, with her memories of friends who live here still? I’m a newbie, how can I say “mine”? The same way Oliver Sacks describes “my Seventh Avenue”: my perceptions and associations irreproducible, colored by everything else I’ve ever seen, strung invisibly together. A persistence of vision. Like how our brain turns a strip of still frames into a blockbuster. Today as usual I share the coffee-shop with other regulars, try to block out the same Spotify soundtrack and clattering baking trays and chit-chat, but my bakery has an alternate and equally viable reality to theirs — more real, even. To me. Another example… an old man. (And yes, I still say that, despite my own turning a gobsmacking seventy.) Relocated here after decades away, in his last years, his memory a fraying veil of lace. The Eugene he’d known persists so indelibly, despite the flickering nature of his day-to-day, that he insists there are two Eugenes: the one he says we say he’s in now not the same as the one in his head: palpably unlike — not just evolved but altogether other, in perhaps a different state, although occasional throughlines surface: the houses he owned back then, one of which he built, that he thinks he still owns; good old campus buildings holding their own beside the incursions of new construction; his old dive bar now a new dive bar. Someone broke into his life and stole everything.... and replaced it with a not quite exact replica. Apologies to Steven Wright
According to legend,
there was a sun that would warm your back pleasantly in the morning, and your shadow would look up at you from the table where you sat. It is said there were tables. As I hear tell, men came, came close enough to see their eyes. As myth would have it, you would not flinch and would not have already gotten up and left. They say that there were lions, not here but somewhere, like the ones that are said to have been painted on cave walls in olden times. Reportedly, there were walls, there were caves somewhere. Not here. As myth would have it, there was sound. Not this blanket of silence, but music made by things that flew, or rolled or ran. The story is that once there was sweetness and bitterness, and what we call the moon passed above like a cold eye and saw that it was time for us to go. .
Moon, moons
When I saw Moon of Stone Flowers I withdrew to my warm place and considered the belling of the wind. Then Yellow Stick Moon called the first ranks of bentgrass, who brought their tiny arrows. Moon That Dances in Pines sweated and spat until rivers crested and rioted. Wherever Owl Pellet Moon rolled, burrowers thanked the tall weeds for shelter and went mute. Tattoo Moon blistered the sky but sent its messages as far as the sea, farther, to the back side of the sky. What did Simmering Moon have in its copper kettle? Egg of the sun. Each embryo uncurls in the dark, rounds to brilliancy, hunches toward death, and joins its ancient cousins. When I heard Moon of Cackle, of Din, of Fuss, I turned to the chiming trees and laid out my nets for what might fall. Moon of Hungry Smoke sat still and red night after night, but then was gone like the rest. Tumbling Moon tumbled, and with it, gold faded in the alders. Crows squabbled about it. How did I not see you, Fish Come Home Moon? I was in the canyon waiting for you. Soon Moon of Shells washed up broken and bleached, but still treasure in the box of night. Why did Questioning Moon jostle the stars and stamp the earth? Moon of Stone Flowers was already on its way back. .
In medias res
It starts in the middle, any story you start. You scoot onto a stool at the bakery, chip away at a scone and fancy coffee, haul out the pen and little notebook, scrawl. But wait… TEN MINUTES EARLIER Here’s today’s stroll in the sun. You call it the turkey trot, for the dithery flocks that roam your neighborhood. You’re killing time while your wife swims. You have this idea for a poem. TWO HOURS EARLIER Lulu’s meows pull you from sleep, and the subplot (or mere leit motif), minor but insistent, kicks in: the care and feeding of pets and wildlife that bumps along like a paper boat on a stream all day every day. Chesterina the squirrel must have her nuts. Although “kicks in” isn’t right, it’s the return to the regular program already in progress — the special bulletin dream wrapped up for now, thanks for tuning in. It was, as usual, odd as all get-out. For starters, there was this strange house full of familiar faces, some ghosts… TWO WEEKS EARLIER A quick trip up the serpentine 5 for a birthday lunch with your daughter somehow feeds the fires of what would (you see now) surface eventually in dream, thoroughly disguised but carrying an aroma, dim reference of time and place that makes for near-sense down the road when you’re deep into a more urgent or at least in-the-moment plot device. But… TWO YEARS EARLIER Well, now you’re getting somewhere: parents dying complicatedly and in their own not-so-sweet time, this explains what? You haven’t quite put it together yet but it’s definitely not the red herring department (no such things as red herrings, you decide, everything is relevant) — there are clues, details that will gel only later (which to you, reader, is earlier), enlighten what might happen still further on or certainly what happened further back, the illumination shining fore and aft through years, how ONE HUNDRED YEARS EARLIER your great-grandparents and their hot-head daughter informed the prickly childhood of your mother; grievances heretofore hidden might well color how she raised her own children. That long story, that serial of episodes, tableaux of emotion and action, character, dialogue, a semblance of plot, flashbacks. Unending. Unbeginning. Now, about that poem…
Author’s Note: Sean Bentley’s work has appeared in Chiron Review, Mudlark, Crab Creek Review, The Literary Nest, Seattle Review, Third Coast, Painted Bride, Northwest Review, Bellingham Review, Another Chicago Magazine, Coe Review, and many other magazines, as well as the anthologies Pontoon 3 (Floating Bridge Press), Iron Country (Copper Canyon), Intro 6 (Doubleday), Island Of Rivers (Pacific NW National Parks Assoc.), and Darkness and Light: Private Writing as Art (iUniverse). Bentley has published three collections: Grace & Desolation (Cune Press 1996), Instances (Confluence Press 1979), and Into the Bright Oasis (Jawbone Press 1976). From 1986 to 2006 he coedited the print poetry journal Fine Madness. In 2023 he edited Missing Addresses (Pleasure Boat Studio), the posthumous collection by renowned poet Beth Bentley. In addition to his writing, he is a photographer; you can find his work on Instagram and Eff-Stop Local: Small-Radius Travel. After a long career as a technical editor, he has recently retired to Eugene, Oregon.
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